myPost-7-29-19a.jpg The biggest issue I dealt with as Zetaman was online critics. Because I was doing something completely out of my comfort zone, I gave weight to critics and trolls. I thought they saw the flaws in what I was doing. I believed they were holding me accountable. In truth, I never trusted myself. The lack of self-trust has crippled me in so many ways. It is tough because I'm scared of being arrogant. Self-trust is not arrogant. Self-trust is knowing that what I am doing is the right thing because I am the authority of what is going on in my life. Self-trust is believing that I am capable of handing the situation I am in. I let A LOT of people erode what little self-trust I have. I’m working hard on developing my inner sense of self-trust. I have to… it is a part of self-care and being an adult.
myPost072519.jpg This morning I wrote a short story explaining the creation of the Naked-Verse. I had a wacky dream which was about this subject. It’s a very meta story. The gist of is that all my old ideas died in a universe implosion/explosion. This lead to a new universe. The explosion was so violent it created 24 extra universes. The multiverse is part of a greater multiverse strain. Grant Morrison came up with this idea in his Final Crisis series (I think). Each of the Naked-Multi-Verse has a Greek letter assigned to it. This is because the Zeta in Zetaman is a Greek letter. Zetaman is the center of each multiverse. In my twenties, I didn’t do a lot of drawing. In fact I did very little. I didn’t write either. I didn’t know what TO write. I kept writing the same story about aliens over and over again. Sadly, it wasn’t until my first divorce that the creative spark ignited. I don’t believe my first divorce was responsible for my lack of creativity. If I wanted to be creative I could have. But tragedy has a way of… changing your outlook. I’ve been looking back at some of my old comic characters. They are truly cringy pieces of work. I can recycled these old ideas to add to my over-arching story about the Naked-Verse. So, after I’m done with Issue #11, I’ll get this 8 page story posted in the Mythos Novellas section of Mythos Imprint. It’ll be my ode to my childhood ideas.
mypost07-15-19.jpg There are times in your life where you have a choice to act hateful or with compassion. Sometimes… those choices are about yourself. I have a problem not being compassionate with myself. I am not kind to myself. Other people have capitalized on that irrational thought. It is good to be compassionate to others. It is even better to be kind to yourself. If you take care of yourself, then you can take care of others.
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