The biggest issue I dealt with as Zetaman was online critics. Because I was doing something completely out of my comfort zone, I gave weight to critics and trolls. I thought they saw the flaws in what I was doing. I believed they were holding me accountable. In truth, I never trusted myself. The lack of self-trust has crippled me in so many ways. It is tough because I'm scared of being arrogant. Self-trust is not arrogant. Self-trust is knowing that what I am doing is the right thing because I am the authority of what is going on in my life. Self-trust is believing that I am capable of handing the situation I am in. I let A LOT of people erode what little self-trust I have. I’m working hard on developing my inner sense of self-trust. I have to… it is a part of self-care and being an adult.
This morning I wrote a short story explaining the creation of the Naked-Verse. I had a wacky dream which was about this subject. It’s a very meta story. The gist of is that all my old ideas died in a universe implosion/explosion. This lead to a new universe. The explosion was so violent it created 24 extra universes. The multiverse is part of a greater multiverse strain. Grant Morrison came up with this idea in his Final Crisis series (I think). Each of the Naked-Multi-Verse has a Greek letter assigned to it. This is because the Zeta in Zetaman is a Greek letter. Zetaman is the center of each multiverse. In my twenties, I didn’t do a lot of drawing. In fact I did very little. I didn’t write either. I didn’t know what TO write. I kept writing the same story about aliens over and over again. Sadly, it wasn’t until my first divorce that the creative spark ignited. I don’t believe my first divorce was responsible for my lack of creativity. If I wanted to be creative I could have. But tragedy has a way of… changing your outlook. I’ve been looking back at some of my old comic characters. They are truly cringy pieces of work. I can recycled these old ideas to add to my over-arching story about the Naked-Verse. So, after I’m done with Issue #11, I’ll get this 8 page story posted in the Mythos Novellas section of Mythos Imprint. It’ll be my ode to my childhood ideas.
There are times in your life where you have a choice to act hateful or with compassion. Sometimes… those choices are about yourself. I have a problem not being compassionate with myself. I am not kind to myself. Other people have capitalized on that irrational thought. It is good to be compassionate to others. It is even better to be kind to yourself. If you take care of yourself, then you can take care of others.
Hello world, this is a test of using Adobe Spark images for my Habari blog
A few months ago I torn down TheComiXScene.com paper. The site gathered news via Twitter hashtags and created a daily “newspaper”. I used Paper.Li to generate the content. Two things happened that led its demise- 1. The payment system changed to a China based company. My bank rejected the charges.. 2. I fought with a webcomic creator over it. It upset them that the site only posted links to content. They believed that the site did nothing to generate better SEO ratings. I argued that the more links to webcomics the better SEO score. They disagreed. So I deleted my Paper.li account. Now I am again building the Comix Scene as webcomic hosting site. I have no expectations that it will grow. People needing free resources flock to popular domains that will assure them views. The FOMO is high with webcomic creators. It’ll be an interesting project. I’ll be using WordPress with Buddypress and bbPress plugins to build a community.
Today is one of those days where I have A LOT to say but I don’t know how. I’m getting the last few pages of The Schlub done. I want to get book 3 out by the end of July. In the meantime, I’m working on a drawing buffer for book 4. I haven’t had time to draw Naked Man Comics #11 pages. I am hoping to remedy that soon. In the meantime, I did an overhaul/transfer of the Mythos website. There are some bugs to work out but I have plenty of time to work on them.
I have seen two videos of hangings in my life. The first video I saw as when I was a kid. In 1989, KTLA ran a story about a Marine who was captured by a terrorist group in Lebanon. They played the video of Lieut. Col. William R. Higgins hanged. It’s been almost 30 years and I still feel sad and disturb by this. I don’t know why the news thought it was a good idea to run this video. They did it all throughout the day. My parents called the station, as did other parents. It was gruesome. https://www.nytimes.com/1989/08/01/world/group-beirut-says-it-hanged-us-colonel-2d-threat-issued-bush-convenes-security.html The second video I saw was Saddam Hussein. This was a public execution due to his crimes against humanity. This was something I should not have seen. Unlike the other video, this was my choice to watch it and I regret doing so. Republican Senator Cindy Hyde-Smith was recorded as saying that she'd be "on the front row" if one of her supporters "invited me to a public hanging." Reference- (https://www.cnn.com/2018/11/27/politics/mississippi-senate-runoff-election/index.html). She and her supporters claims that public hangings are not the same as public lynchings. Lynchings were horrible acts of violence committed against people of color. They support the death penalty, not race crimes. If we take Ms. Hyde-Smith, and her supporters, at face value, I still consider them monsters. Hanging is a barbaric act. This group of people is okay with killing someone out in the open? How are they different than terrorist groups who beheads soldiers and journalists? How are they different than drawn and quarter criminals for entertainment? Committing and showcasing vicious acts of death is vile and disturbing. It is the lack of compassion and delighting in vulgarity that bothers me. I am horrified that this is where we are as a society.
It is bitter irony that the GOP and Repubs (especially Trump) call for unity after all the garbage they’ve thrown about “dem libs.” Your president laughs when reporters are body slammed. Your base, which you know of to be of lower intelligence, eats up all the lies you’ve spewed. When one of them decides to act out against the “libs”, all of the sudden you’re surprised? Get real. You all are loving this. The only reason why you are giving “thoughts and prayers” is because the optics are bad. I’m sure you all are sitting around laughing.
For a political party that demands small government, they sure do want citizens to obey their political leaders without question.
I've read enough Twitter comments from Trump supporters. It makes me tired. I am categorizing Trumpers online as either bots or neanderthals. It's insane. If what people write online is what they believe, then America is full of uneducated crazies. I will stick to posting about comics rather than engage in politics. Engaging with a Trump supporter is a lost cause.